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Monday, May 22, 2006

You Don't Know Who Am I

what am i suppose to do if someone
say hate you with an exclamation marks?
seriously the first thing most of you would do is buat bodoh right?
ok fine, first thing first i did something wrong then that
where the hate should start right.....
ok i realize my mistake and i wanna say sorry .
so that all these would come to its end
but then when all those sms came
all those word in it were so so so so so strong and painful.
most of the time i do not reply these sms because to me
if i reply i will just hurt my feeling much more deeper....
thats my reason why i do not want to reply those sms.
then half of me can except the fact
that i should make the first move to say sorry
but then the other half ,
jux do not want to make the first move cause it felt that
aku baru nak start to make the first move
but then i get all those harsh sms
seriously the other half of me felt that it is so unfair.....
after reading it , all kind of feeling came to my mind .
marah , geram , sedih , sayu , kesal
banyak sangat that i could not explain..
i know that you are not these kind of person
but when these happen
i don't think i know about you as much as other did .....
i can accept that not everyone can accept me as
who i am because everyone has different feeling of other..
the other thing that i receive is about me complaining
to others and saying that i'm shameless ............
everyone need to talk to someone
when they cannot take it right ?
cause to me , i think that is a way for me to release the unwanted thing
then if you thing that if i'm talking to someone about my problem is a complain
then it simply mean that anyone who shared its problem with someone
must be someone that is shameless .....................
is that what you wanna to lell me ?
i realize what i had done wrong
then there one message that you forward it to me which
say that it take 2 people to create a problem
i have realize mine .
have you realize yours?
to me i believe that in order to get other to understand me
i should understand other's feeling and respect them
but not all the time i can remember these sentence
when i could not remember in what i believe
most of the time i end up in trouble.
human being makes mistake that what other says
then if you felt hurt after reading these blog i can only say sorry

# posted by fo0tPrinT | 5:07 AM

9 Comments:

okay fine im sry becoz i keep msging u wit smth tt makes u feel very bad or sad... but do u know why i msg u wit all tt nasty words?! u think abt it... than another thing is i only ask for ur sugestion not to diss it wit nadia... tt will make it more worse! btw i nvr complain it to u but i just shared my opition wit u as i know u got say b4 tt ["if u haf problem do tell me"] tt is what u told me last yr! yar btw u n nadia kan same class tis yr... tt y i ask u! btw do read nadia blog! c how upset n angry she is towards me! i dunnoe what so say more coz now i know who u re... if u think im wrong i apo but now its very diff to believe u anymore as u didnt show tt to me! another thing is y dun u msg me back when and just apo instead of carry on fighting?! why?! explain plz!

By FIFA, at 7:47 AM
ok fine the nasty words come from the tak amarah kan dengan kau kan . ok yang itu aku boleh terima i was at fault .sorry yang diss... to make it worst tu pun aku boleh terime aku was at fault.ok yang pasal kau tak leh trust aku lagi tu is up to you.bcause its ur problem so its yours to make the choice right.i don't wanna to cepat2 apo... back cause i felt so like broken into pices by ur msg that you send .1 day i will let u read them back so that you can c how harsh ur word are.....u say u did not complain but you are just asking for sugestion from me right? ok that fine with me but then asal kau kate aku pulak complain kat other? aku tak faham asal kau boleh mintak pendatap orang lain tapi bila aku mintak pendapat orang lain kau kate aku complain? asal macam ni ? what the different?

By fo0tPrinT, at 8:29 AM
yar lah kau complain kat org lain... tapi org lain tu tak tau aper2 yg terjadi! betul?! than for ex u complain at nadia chan... 4 sure she will betrayed me right?! and plus one more person tt hates me?! right! i told u bcoz i ask ur sugestion not i complaint! btw i trust u bcoz u can keep a sceret! tt y! if u really felt bad y dun just ask nadia opintion not to diss n not to tell her what happened! act abit so ppl wont be upset! understand????!

By FIFA, at 8:36 AM
ok lah now aku rase joanna & merisa
macam dah tak nak cakap hai kat aku lagi.....
they smile and walk away can't you c that....?
ok from these can you c something in common?
u felt i complain to other therefore other will not like u while i felt that u complain to ur friend so that they will keep away from me ..
can you c wat i'm trying to say?

By fo0tPrinT, at 8:52 AM
sry sikit i didnt even complain to them until today!
today i just complain to joanna! TODAY!
u wanna know y they nvr even say hi to u?!
bcoz always i go ur place wit them but since i fight wit u i nvr even sit arcoss u! tt y they nvr even saw u!
until today then they saw u!

By FIFA, at 8:57 AM
ok i accept that fact that u tak complain kat joanna until today.abih sekarang soalan yang bermain kat fikiran aku kan ,asal kau kate aku pulak complain kate orang lain? cakap aku tak tau malu semue? in e same time siape kate kite orang gaduh?

By fo0tPrinT, at 9:10 AM
fine... kalau sampai harsh word and oso until someone angry isnt tt gaduh?! abih kalau gitu aper main2?! until someone angry is it?!
eh btw i said sry alreadi so its up to u now!!
not my prom!

By FIFA, at 8:39 AM
if any1 read tis comment plz... make a point to comment ur thoughts too... thx =}

By FIFA, at 8:42 PM
ha ha ha :]

By fo0tPrinT, at 7:58 PM